Interrogating life.

There are days when i face emotional setbacks and i don’t know where to go. Today i was talking with my friends as to how far we have to go to end this suffering, how hard do we hold on and what do we hold on to? There was nothing we could come up with and we were all kind of frustrated and pretty much devastated about the situation we were into. Suddenly the car keys slips out of friend’s hand and ends up in a sewer. That was like the cherry on the cake! We were stuck in the middle of nowhere with our keys stuck in a little sewer and the openings were so narrow that we couldn’t put our hands into it. As a very frustrated human being, my friend started crying and questioning as to why everything in her life was falling apart, nothing was going right. We were analysing of what we could do to get out of this impossible situation. We were really hopeless but my friend (who lost her keys) was really desperate to get the keys out, so she tried her last shot and got herself a twig and started poking the keys to somehow lift it up. My other friend and me were quite confident as to why the twig thing was not helpful although we were supporting the act. A man stopped by us and noticed what we were doing and then he asked us what went wrong so we told him the story. He offered us help so we accepted that. He went pass by the tree and broke the thinnest twig and rolled the end into a knot that could fit the keychain of the keys. He inserted that into the sewer hole and after few attempts he managed to get our keys out. We were all taken aback! We started thanking him and he just kept murming ‘God is great’ and then he left. I was wondering that such people really restore my faith in humanity. A complete stranger helps us out of a situation we nearly thought as impossible. 

That was the moment when i realised that i got my answers to the questions i asked before. How far do we have to go to end the suffering? We have to go to as far as we can, as far as we get kicked in a curb full of dirt, as far as we have the strength to live the hard days. How hard do we hold on? We hold on until we don’t lift ourselves from the tragedy. What do we hold on to? We hold on to the possibilities our life offer to us because ‘God is great’. 

People we meet cross our paths for this very reason, they are nothing but a mere medium for answers. Life will revert back to your questions. Go look for your answers, my friend!

                 

Puzzled

We all think that our world is a jigsaw puzzle and each of us is a piece of the same. We try to find our match, we try our best to fit in perfectly for the jigsaw to complete and yes it looks beautiful. But then how accurate are we? How accurate is this comparison of world with a jigsaw puzzle? 

                    When i was a kid, i was desperate to be the person i see in others. To like what they like, to be able to comprehend things the way they do, to portray myself the way others carry themselves and to put up what the world has to offer. Like living a double life, when in the crowd i used to pretend to be like them, i would react the way they expected me to, laugh on the jokes i never found funny, talking about other person’s life even though i was not interested to,pretending to hate someone i was not intended to and lot such things. I was afraid i was not doing it right because all these things were supposed to bring me pleasure just like they did to others but matter-o-factly it made me unhappy. When i used to sleep at night i would feel sorry for talking something i would never mean, i was obviously lying. And whoever said this was right – “You can lie to everybody but yourself”. I was afraid that i was different. I had alot to realise back then, i had to hear this “It’s okay to be different” and not just hear but absorb it in my heart. But there was nobody to say it and i was not aware that, to free myself i will have to accept who i am. Constantly making an effort to fit in because i was not ready to discover who i really was beneath this mask of lies. But i knew one thing that the mask wasn’t a sign of deception but instead it was a protection from the world. 

The world is armed, not with real weapons but words, and they had the potential to destroy my very divergence.

                   So, in life, you may not meet such a person who will come and tell you that it’s okay to be yourself, that you shouldn’t be afraid to be real. The thing is you will have to realise it yourself. And even though it may take time for you to discover who you are and know where you’re happiness really lies in, that’s perfectly fine because great things takes time to realise. The moment you realise you are worth the way you are just start living it up life the way you want to and don’t wait for anybody’s affirmation. People don’t have to accept you, you have to accept yourself. 

The one similarity we all have is our uniqueness.

 The world will always be vulnerable but don’t fall prey. I am sure you have immense strength in yourself. If i can believe in you then so can you, believe in yourself. 

Escape

Sometimes in life you cannot take it, what life has offered to you. You want to escape for once and for all. The mental escape into a peaceful landscape. You want to free yourself from all the ties that hold you back and makes it harder for you to breathe the tranquil air. They said freedom is a state of mind. But they never said to what extent our mind will be in the state of power to feel the freedom which is not obvious to the eyes. 

               How unknowingly that you started fighting this war we call life. And fiercely that you realised it was more important to survive and keep fighting to make it to the end. But is it really the end that you keep struggling all the way? Is it that hope you keep up for an happy ending? I just want you to know that whatever you have struggled for is not just to end the suffering but to escape into a new beginning. Its not just the end that we live for, we live to begin and emerge into even more stronger. Things also end when you quit. So what differs your survival from quitting? The courage to move into another dimension of life.

 Your efforts are not just meant for the war to end but what is after the war that matters the most. You kept fighting for the peace, for entering into a complete new world where you leave your past behind. We never really get away with things, we just land into another. Our escape from one situation is like accepting the invitation for another one. 

                  This battle is not to just to win over hard days but to get your life back. And those scars, those scars will fade too. You will get the justice. But don’t wait for it, instead work for it.

Don’t accept the hostility that the world offers you, instead create your own world.

Mirage

Every day reveals something to you, like opening a little secret box everyday and taking step towards the clear picture of life. You meet people and you become a part of their lives, but how many do actually see through that life of other person? Have you ever realised how wrong can you be about someone. To what extent have you misjudged a person. 

                   We always compare our lives with others and find ourselve in this pool of disgrace, wet with our own expectation about life. Everybody’s life seems happening to us. It seems happening to our end because its a mirage, a mirage of our own perception regarding the other person. We keep building blocks of dreams until we realise we were only sleeping the whole time and now that we finally have to wake up. Our perception distorts the reality we live in. 

                You need to stop. You need to stop when you know you are building those dreamy expectations which cannot collide with your reality. Let your vibes be welcoming to the uncertainty of your life. Stay happy and positive.

Kick those blocks of expectations

The leap of faith

The one thing that a person wants from you is understanding. Have the level of understanding which is not obvious to your eyes. Some energy that you can feel so passionately that there exists no questions about trust. Be willing and have the courage to see the invisible because it has all the answer you were ever looking for. Make the person feel in a way that they never hesitate to share their darkest secrets with you. 

                You are not here to judge. You are here for the very purpose to acknowledge people of their worth. To make them feel how you want to be felt. Do those virtues to other that you expect others to do to you. People come into your life so that you can convey them the things they can’t convey to themselve. Your existence in somebody else’s life is a role play. Always try to be the special person who everybody loves. Be the solitaire of their life and see how your life becomes a treasure.

               There will be always someone who needs you. Don’t you ever think that you are not worth anybody’s need because people find it hard to express emotions when they cannot fathom those in their words.To see the visible, you need to see the invisible first. That is why you read people and you see beyond the visible to touch the bare truth, to feel every bit of it. Truth is considered brutal because people fail to catch the glimpse of its beauty. Your real strength lies in percieving the invisible. Take the leap of faith..

Cluster of feelings.

When the pain feels like pleasure and you want your heart to ache some more.

When you want to cry your heart out yet you decide to ignore.

When it gets hard to breathe feeling confined in those desperate thoughts.

When all you thought was tying heart to heart knots.

When times were so you felt dreamy and delirious.

When you realised you were only being needy and oblivious.

When you loved so much to give away the hate.

When you closed your eyes feeling tired enough to wait.

When the world was spinning but only one picture stood still.

When he held her hands yet against your will.

When you died a million times inside your mind.

When your soul wanted love, the hopeless kind.

When his happiness gave you a purpose to shine.

When in parellel universe you confessed him, “you are mine.”

We call it comfort zone.

We happen to make lot of moments and lot of moments happen to make us. We create our own world. The satisfying world, wherein everything is according to what you desire. Everybody has their own world and their so called comfort zone and we don’t go beyond our comfort zone to do stuff because we are scared and nervous and insecured of that our emotions are too fragile and we can get heart broken anytime if someone pulls our weak string.
Why are we so weak or just say high on emotions all the time? Maybe because the way we look at the world is not the same way as the world look back at us.
Yes, we happen to make lot of moments.. better. But not necessarily that lot of other moments happen to make us better. Everybody doesn’t act accordingly keeping in mind our satisfying world. They have their own. They do what they feel is correct. The world contradicts, and often that we meet people with contradicting world. So, many has to accommodate to keep up with the relationship and the social life and many has to compromise. And when this phase starts where you compromise with your emotions, with the theory of your satisfying world is the day you lose your power to make moments. That is when the moments make you..worst or best its all subjective. You enter into someone else’s world, which contradicts with yours and you know its not easy but you still do it. Because you are too cautious to break their heart without even taking a look at your already broken heart. You live for others..
The motive, the satisfaction, the emotions all gets compromised.. for others. And that is what our parents do. They live for us. They forget their identities and try to adapt or rather compromise. We often forget that when they get something for us even they need something in return. They never say but they do expect. Its never too late to be a good person. They don’t expect us to be perfect, they want us to be happy. Our happiness should be in their happiness just as theirs rely on ours.