So i have been told
I will suffer until i am bold,
I try to heal my cuts
Forcing caffiene in my guts,
If only i’d knew
My penance was overdue,
Would have never asked for a day
Only with the night i’d stay
Chasing reasons for my pain,
Breaking the endless chain
Of laughter and tears,
And my magnificent fears.
When the pain feels like pleasure and you want your heart to ache some more.
When you want to cry your heart out yet you decide to ignore.
When it gets hard to breathe feeling confined in those desperate thoughts.
When all you thought was tying heart to heart knots.
When times were so you felt dreamy and delirious.
When you realised you were only being needy and oblivious.
When you loved so much to give away the hate.
When you closed your eyes feeling tired enough to wait.
When the world was spinning but only one picture stood still.
When he held her hands yet against your will.
When you died a million times inside your mind.
When your soul wanted love, the hopeless kind.
When his happiness gave you a purpose to shine.
When in parellel universe you confessed him, “you are mine.”