Your presence made this world a better place
But now that you are gone, it’s no more than a disgrace
I’ve been scarred ever since i was eleven
I wish you’d take me with you, all the way to heaven
I did see it coming but i was not so clever
Too late i realised, you weren’t going for now but forever
You are resting like always but i hope this time it’s in peace
Until next time when life gives you another lease.
Why do you keep doing it?
Hit the spot you once stitched
And stitch it again once more
Don’t you understand?
My blood has become so dense
It has ceased to drop hence.
So i have been told
I will suffer until i am bold,
I try to heal my cuts
Forcing caffiene in my guts,
If only i’d knew
My penance was overdue,
Would have never asked for a day
Only with the night i’d stay
Chasing reasons for my pain,
Breaking the endless chain
Of laughter and tears,
And my magnificent fears.
When the pain feels like pleasure and you want your heart to ache some more.
When you want to cry your heart out yet you decide to ignore.
When it gets hard to breathe feeling confined in those desperate thoughts.
When all you thought was tying heart to heart knots.
When times were so you felt dreamy and delirious.
When you realised you were only being needy and oblivious.
When you loved so much to give away the hate.
When you closed your eyes feeling tired enough to wait.
When the world was spinning but only one picture stood still.
When he held her hands yet against your will.
When you died a million times inside your mind.
When your soul wanted love, the hopeless kind.
When his happiness gave you a purpose to shine.
When in parellel universe you confessed him, “you are mine.”